As I placed the last stamp on the last thank you card I was buried with so many emotions. I felt overjoyed, overwhelmed, and overcome with happiness. I cannot believe how many people took time out of their busy schedules to attend the three showers we had, not to mention spend their hard earned money on gifts for this little blessing. I am incredibly thankful to everyone who has displayed their love in so many different ways. It has truly helped me accept this huge change in my life and I thank each and everyone of you for that.
The first time I came to terms with the fact that I am going to be a mom was on my way home from work a couple months ago. I was listening to a local country station and (at the time) Keith Urban and Eric Church's new song Raise 'em Up starting playing. The lyrics that really struck me were at the very end:
So you meet someone / The only one / You take her by the hand / Make a stand / Buy some land / Make some love / And then babies come / Raise em' up / Trophy high / Raise em' up / To the sky / Raise em' up / Show everybody that new born smile / Raise em' up / Tall and strong / Raise em' up / Right from wrong / Raise em' up so damn high they can hear God singing along
I just lost it.
The second time was during a commercial. Yes, a commercial, a Wells Fargo commercial nonetheless. Its the one of two women learning sign language and at the very end you find out they are learning because they are in the process of adopting a young deaf girl.
Again, I lost it.
And the third was tonight when addressing that last thank you card.
I've read about all the emotions you might go through while being pregnant, but the one I felt today I couldn't pinpoint. Like I said above, I felt a mixture of emotions. The idea that all these people love my unborn baby already is completely and utterly thrilling. I have come a long way since the beginning of my pregnancy. I still have moments due to being at the heaviest and most uncomfortable weight I've ever been, achy, and sleep-deprived, but I am finally not scared as hell. I know, even though these people are miles away, I have an amazing support system. I have witnessed so many wonderful women in my life who've mothered their children. I have seen the ups and downs and noted what to do (and what not to do). And I know I will learn as I go. I also have an amazingly supportive husband who's been reading about pregnancy, birthing, and newborn care like its his job. He texts me things to discuss every day!
So I guess I am trying to say thank you to everyone who came to all of Baby Mo's showers and/or who bought him or her a gift. Each one of you has helped me come to terms with the idea of becoming a mom and lessening the fright more and more each day. I love you all and thank you from the bottom of my heart.
62 MORE DAY!!